sick day

i get very inclined to read signs and portents into everything that happens when i’m nervous, and — i get top surgery in a week and a half, and i have my last doctor’s appointment this week, and i started this week by getting a really painful sore throat and the beginnings of an actual illness

i also started this month by getting 8 bloody noses in 4 days

i know this is purely a luck thing, it has nothing to do with The Gods Telling Me Not To Get Surgery, but also, have i considered having a complete meltdown about how clearly the universe things i shouldn’t get top.