i got top surgery 2019 june 26th with dr. alison shore at advocate illinois masonic. please be aware: i’m including photographs of my chest, including some of the gnarlier bruising. there are no photos of my accursed flesh opened up or anything, but be forewarned.
Category Archives: life of ry
woo
i’m slowly going Full Woo, so today i did my first tarot spread! i did a simple 3-card spread around problems the nature of my problem: 9 of pentacles, inverted — self-worth, over-investment in work. that sounds about right — one of the bigger issues right now is my inability to chill out and work […]
scarfest
my body is doing its best to figure out wtf to even do about getting cut open and reshaped; it’s been coping really weirdly. for a while i was getting what felt like mild electrical shocks while my nerves knit themselves back together; that’s mostly finished up, but it was WEIRD AS HELL. it didn’t […]
from guru to voodoo and voodoo to zen
a brief note for friends/friends of blog: i am slowly titrating off of sertraline. i am at least marginally more self-aware than i was a few years ago, so i THINK i will notice if this experiment super doesn’t work, but also if you notice me completely falling to pieces, a “hey, so how’s the […]
fair warning
I’ve been noodling around about happiness (I’m… possibly… content???? I view this with enormous suspicion, but also: I might be????) and embodiment a whole bunch, since when you’re recovering from surgery and can only handle tasks on the level of, “retrieve an ice pack and watch TV while on industrial strength painkillers”, and also you’re […]
how to be happy
so like — “i just decided one day to wake up and be happy” is obviously not how that worked at all. getting to a point of being more or less content took a lot a lot A LOT of time and effort (and so goddamn much therapy) and i am not really there yet. […]
an update
SO I HAD TOP SURGERY i’ll probably put up a more in-detail post later, but: ya bro doesn’t have tiddies anymore and is feeling pretty good about that!! i’m healing nicely and coping with the gnarlier parts; i’m excited for when i finally get everything off and can enjoy my fancy new chest, but in […]
plantpocalypse
i’m very bad at keeping plants alive. i just replanted a succulent because i nearly drowned it and half its leaves fell off — i didn’t actually realize it was just sitting in a whole puddle of water for a while! i feel terrible! anyway here are my two beleaguered plants — one day i’ll […]
sick day pt. II
apparently the secret to speedrunning being sick is: ACTUALLY TAKE TIME OFF OF WORK!!!!! i worked about 3 hours yesterday from home, and otherwise drank a ton of fluids and had soup and fruit juice and tea and this morning i feel — still kind of gross, but manageably so it is WILD to me […]
sick day
i get very inclined to read signs and portents into everything that happens when i’m nervous, and — i get top surgery in a week and a half, and i have my last doctor’s appointment this week, and i started this week by getting a really painful sore throat and the beginnings of an actual […]