before i started T, i very much thought of it purely as a set of physical changes, but that’s not even close to accurate. …rather — maybe it’s more accurate to say that a LOT of mental health stuff was wrapped up in the physical part, in much more foundational and fundamental ways than i […]
…….as a side note, everyone else in the webring is a lot less blog-chatty than i am, which i simultaneously feel self conscious about and also I too am not a bit tamed—I too am untranslatable; I sound my barbaric yawp over the roofs of the world. walt whitman (on a semi-related note, i have […]
turns out nubs CAN get high, just specifically whatever brand of ‘nip his new toy came with his eyes are the size of dinner plates and when i get up he sets off in a really goofy run and has been literally bouncing off the walls
i see my face a bunch of times every single day, and i hear my voice all the time, and it’s very hard to tell if i look or sound different i get directed to the men’s bathroom now, though, and i listened to a recording of my voice and was legitimately surprised how i […]
so — i know T is doing SOMETHING, i just don’t know WHAT. i’m in this body all the time 24/7, so from my perspective, i can tell my voice is lowER, but not how low. my deeply embarrassing judge for whether or not i’m passing has become whether or not i get harassed in […]
i used to think that i was agoraphobic, or like — agoraphobic because of depression and anxiety, or lazy, or SOMETHING; turns out it might have just been dysphoria the whole time? it’s so easy to just toss a t-shirt on and go outside without the bone-deep tiredness that would come over me every single […]
“amateur” completely wrecked me tbh. it’s a memoir by the first trans man to box at madison square garden. he talks about manhood and masculinity and what it means, exactly, to Be A Man, and how to be a good man; it included touching on some stuff that is really close to the bone for […]
comics comics comics i had an hour to kill at the evanston public library, so i read some comics.