my body is doing its best to figure out wtf to even do about getting cut open and reshaped; it’s been coping really weirdly. for a while i was getting what felt like mild electrical shocks while my nerves knit themselves back together; that’s mostly finished up, but it was WEIRD AS HELL. it didn’t […]
it was — fine. i have very little to say about this.
basically the polar opposite of the power: the first part of the book was a miserable slog, with a solid payoff at the end.
great leadup; incredibly sloppy execution and dismount. (i often don’t trigger warn for book reviews, but this one needs, i think, tws for transphobia, misogyny, rape)
a brief note for friends/friends of blog: i am slowly titrating off of sertraline. i am at least marginally more self-aware than i was a few years ago, so i THINK i will notice if this experiment super doesn’t work, but also if you notice me completely falling to pieces, a “hey, so how’s the […]
a tiny protip to every journalist and politician in the US right now: “actually, she was born here” or “actually, she’s been a citizen longer than [benchmark]” is a tempting gotcha, but also: every argument along those lines implicitly accepts, “go back to where you came from” as an acceptable argument in some circumstances literally […]
I’ve been noodling around about happiness (I’m… possibly… content???? I view this with enormous suspicion, but also: I might be????) and embodiment a whole bunch, since when you’re recovering from surgery and can only handle tasks on the level of, “retrieve an ice pack and watch TV while on industrial strength painkillers”, and also you’re […]
so like — “i just decided one day to wake up and be happy” is obviously not how that worked at all. getting to a point of being more or less content took a lot a lot A LOT of time and effort (and so goddamn much therapy) and i am not really there yet. […]
i listened to “all you can ever know” recently while recovering from top surgery. this is beneath me, but also is true: i resented nicole for this entire book.
SO I HAD TOP SURGERY i’ll probably put up a more in-detail post later, but: ya bro doesn’t have tiddies anymore and is feeling pretty good about that!! i’m healing nicely and coping with the gnarlier parts; i’m excited for when i finally get everything off and can enjoy my fancy new chest, but in […]