the thing is — i am fundamentally too fucked in the head to have the sort of relationship i would like to have? i’m afraid of people, i want to have sex with someone but the thought of actually doing it is terrifying (not least of all bc — not only do i have non-standard […]

weird shit i bought in the hopes it would make me feel better while looking for a job:

extremely minimalist running shoes (fix your form, fix your ENTIRE life) tickets to japan for new year’s (if i don’t get a job i might as well be sad in japan, right?) cat toys (a big hit) cat harness (a complete and utter failure that nubs didn‘t forgive me for for like 48 hours) so […]